Sometimes life is hard.
Sometimes a little therapy is needed to get the negative thoughts out and start working towards a positive attitude. It’s something that I struggle with. So here’s what going on…
I feel tired all the time. I don’t know exactly what it is, but I think a lot of it comes with where I am in my life right now. Brady is currently on his last internship which ends next week while spending any free time studying for his boards which is also next week. In the 2 years we’ve been married, we’ve lived in 4 different homes, currently with my in-laws which is the first time we haven’t been living on our own. We’re probably moving (again) within a month after his graduation which is something to look forward to and dread at the same time.
I’m in a temporary job which is it’s own kind of draining.
Meanwhile, my dad’s gearing up to sell our family home of 14 years, which is emotionally difficult because there are many memories there. It’s the only home I’ve known since moving to the US and the last place where mom lived so this has been hard.
I’m pretty much always in some level of constant pain because of my back. My sleep is the most affected by this because I can never get comfortable.
I think I’ve been dealing with another small bout of depression lately, which makes living a lot more tiring and training a lot harder. It’s probably due to a combination of the aforementioned things but it makes it hard to see the light at the end of the tunnel.
I’m trying to have a brighter outlook on life so here are some POSITIVE things going on in my life…
Even though I’ve been dealing with a lot of pain, I see progress in every workout. I feel myself getting stronger and able to handle more distance. I’m probably around the same weight I’ve been the last few months which is hard, but I’m not currently weighing myself because that would be harder to deal with right now.
The Iron Girl is in less than 4 weeks! It was the highlight of last summer so whether I’m super ready or not, I’m looking forward to it.
I’m also looking forward to the Olympics. I’ve loved the Olympics since I was really little and there’s something about it that makes me want to cry. I get to cheer for 2 countries which makes it all the more fun!
I’m overcoming fears and insecurities. I’ve been afraid of putting myself out there. I want to start my own photography business so I can do something with my degree. I’ve also wanted to become more serious about blogging. I love reading blogs and connecting within the community. I’ve finally taken the step to just keep putting myself out there because I’m never going to reach my goals if I keep waiting for everything to be “just right”. I need money to invest into my business but I am laying the groundwork and making plans.
Library finds. This is probably really lame to be excited about, but I’ve have a borrowing obsession. I think I have about 20 things checked out right now. And that’s just for myself. I’m reading books on photography, bloggin, health, a few novels, and I’ve been getting into some of Jillian Michaels’ workout DVDs (gym membership hack). I’m currently reading “The Royal We” but I’m not super into it yet. I read “All the Bright Places” last week and it was horrible.
Even though I listed it as a stress, I am VERY excited about Brady almost being done. There’s a lot going on in the next month and I don’t even know where we’ll be in September. It’s a scary place to be but I am excited to finally be crossing into this new phase.
What are you struggling with today?
What gets you motivated when you’re feeling down?
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